I've never felt more lost in my life.
And I feel like I have no reason to be feeling this way.
Everyone has a story.
A new friend told me today how her dad died three years ago to cancer and some girls on her sports team talked behind her back about it because she had a match on the anniversary of his death and didn't play well.
Another person told me how they don't want to go home because they are tired of their family leaning on them for everything because they are the only going to college and they only one who has their life together.
I am feeling completely lost in this world that has over seven billion people.
And I have tried to move around, I have tried to talk to people, I have tried and tried and tried.
I am realizing right now that it is me who is in the way of everything because I have such a close minded view about the world.
But I don't know how to let go.
I don't know how to let myself be free from myself and just be whoever I am without caring what other people think.
I don't know how not to care.
That is the one class that no school has that needs to be taught.
Teachers try to teach it within their classes but it doesn't work.
I just need someone to slap myself silly or something to get me to realize how stupid I am being an d even as I type this, I feel silly.
I just don't know how to let go and not give a care to the world
And I feel like I have no reason to be feeling this way.
Everyone has a story.
A new friend told me today how her dad died three years ago to cancer and some girls on her sports team talked behind her back about it because she had a match on the anniversary of his death and didn't play well.
Another person told me how they don't want to go home because they are tired of their family leaning on them for everything because they are the only going to college and they only one who has their life together.
I am feeling completely lost in this world that has over seven billion people.
And I have tried to move around, I have tried to talk to people, I have tried and tried and tried.
I am realizing right now that it is me who is in the way of everything because I have such a close minded view about the world.
But I don't know how to let go.
I don't know how to let myself be free from myself and just be whoever I am without caring what other people think.
I don't know how not to care.
That is the one class that no school has that needs to be taught.
Teachers try to teach it within their classes but it doesn't work.
I just need someone to slap myself silly or something to get me to realize how stupid I am being an d even as I type this, I feel silly.
I just don't know how to let go and not give a care to the world
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