Oh the Places You Could Go!

 

Where to be? Where to go?
I just don't know.
I am ready to leave my school for winter break and escape the daily pain of feeling like a loser and not fitting in. I am ready to get out of this hole that while some days makes me feel welcome and loved, there are still a higher amount of days that make me want to cry and escape.
My only option is to go home. And yes, I love my home and my family but they also cause me stress and problems. I can only handle them for a certain extent of time until I need to leave. But I will have a whole month with them before I head home. Everything is best held in moderation and a month with my family will get to feel almost too long.
I wish I could go off with my best friend and be IW's but she has found the "love of her life", where she has felt nothing ever like this feeling this guy before....which I am glad for her, I am honestly so excited. I'm just nervous for when the time comes, if it does, that they end it and she comes to me telling me she never gets guys.
Which is so nice to hear as a single person. Lawls...you know how it is.
I wish I could go off on a whirlwind adventure over break and explore the Rocky Mountains, explore New York City and do all the touristy things, climb Mount Everest, skydive, visit historical places in European countries, go to a World Cup soccer match, go scuba diving in the Mediterranean, go taste new foods and explore cultures on every continent.

Nonetheless, these are just dreams. Dreams that could be possible to an extent one day but currently...they are a no-go.
What would make these dreams worthwhile and amazing, and worth the time and money spent on going to do them, is to have a loved one with you.
I know that there are good guys out there-it just takes time to find them.
And like my new friend Jung said in a speech the other day, he prayed and prayed to God to help him find a girlfriend, but all he needed to do was realize a relationship with God is important as well, and he needs to make sure he has that established before he goes in search for a serious, and loving relationship.