"You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
It makes sense when I'm with you" Hunter Hayes "Wanted"
Why do I have to know I am wanted?
Here I am at college, and I am trying to make it through week by week.
Why?
Because I hate it.
Why?
Because I don't feel wanted.
I don't feel like anyone will miss me if I never showed up in a class or at a meeting again in this town. I am just as easy to forget as that math homework your professor assigned on Friday.
I have been debating on transferring colleges for awhile now.
And I have mentioned this to some people, whom I would say I am closest to on this campus, arbitrarily but I did slyly to make it seem like I am not really looking at it but it is an option. And you know what they sad? Whatever. Or Have a great time there- good party school. Oh you'll like it there.
Great.
That's just what I wanted to here.
That you don't really care if I stay here.
I'm not asking you to get down on your hands and knees and beg me to stay.
I want to know that you might miss me, even a little bit.
I want to know that you have started to care for me a little bit but I guess not.
Walking around campus at night, it can be a little scary. My college is in a relatively safe area but there has been some crime and issues.
I walk around at night by myself when I am walking building to building (like dorms to the library) and realize that someone could come up and attack me, drag me away, rape me, any awful thing and I don't think anyone would realize this for a few days.
And I feel like I might be willing to let them because I just don't give a poop anymore.
Might as well see if anyone cares for me now that I am under duress.
My roommate doesn't care what I do.
I go to bed after her and get up before her usually so she would probably just think that missed her.
If I was found alive and well, then my sorority sisters may care for a few days and then go back to loving their fave freshies.
My soccer buddies wouldn't know because I don't always make it to soccer and I;m just starting to get to know them.
I sound like a silly girl wishing a guy would sing a song like Hunter Hayes's Wanted to them..
But right now, that's all I'm wishing for.
I wish someone wanted me.
But I guess I'll just have to learn how to deal with not being wanted.
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
It makes sense when I'm with you" Hunter Hayes "Wanted"
Why do I have to know I am wanted?
Here I am at college, and I am trying to make it through week by week.
Why?
Because I hate it.
Why?
Because I don't feel wanted.
I don't feel like anyone will miss me if I never showed up in a class or at a meeting again in this town. I am just as easy to forget as that math homework your professor assigned on Friday.
I have been debating on transferring colleges for awhile now.
And I have mentioned this to some people, whom I would say I am closest to on this campus, arbitrarily but I did slyly to make it seem like I am not really looking at it but it is an option. And you know what they sad? Whatever. Or Have a great time there- good party school. Oh you'll like it there.
Great.
That's just what I wanted to here.
That you don't really care if I stay here.
I'm not asking you to get down on your hands and knees and beg me to stay.
I want to know that you might miss me, even a little bit.
I want to know that you have started to care for me a little bit but I guess not.
Walking around campus at night, it can be a little scary. My college is in a relatively safe area but there has been some crime and issues.
I walk around at night by myself when I am walking building to building (like dorms to the library) and realize that someone could come up and attack me, drag me away, rape me, any awful thing and I don't think anyone would realize this for a few days.
And I feel like I might be willing to let them because I just don't give a poop anymore.
Might as well see if anyone cares for me now that I am under duress.
My roommate doesn't care what I do.
I go to bed after her and get up before her usually so she would probably just think that missed her.
If I was found alive and well, then my sorority sisters may care for a few days and then go back to loving their fave freshies.
My soccer buddies wouldn't know because I don't always make it to soccer and I;m just starting to get to know them.
I sound like a silly girl wishing a guy would sing a song like Hunter Hayes's Wanted to them..
But right now, that's all I'm wishing for.
I wish someone wanted me.
But I guess I'll just have to learn how to deal with not being wanted.
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